Ever since my stress-related disgruntlement of last week, my job has gotten significantly easier. I’ve found a groove, if you will, and have learned the fine art of not caring so much. I teach some classes and I entertain others, and that’s the best I think I can hope for while I’m here. I’m still looking elsewhere a little, and I lie sleepless some nights wondering what I’m going to do after this… in the end, though, I’ve come to accept this experience for what it is — a relatively easy job that pays a relatively large amount of money and allows me to experience life in this Korea place.

The thing is: I’m still lost, I’ll probably always be lost, but at least here being lost is expected of me. If after I’m done here I can go back to America or wherever and feel just one iota less confused about my life, then my time here will all have been worthwhile… anything more will be gravy.

3 comments to gravy

  • When my wife and I got back to Canada from just five months in China, we suffered reverse culture shock. Everything was weirdly clean and efficient, and my students were sullen louts compared to the bright, eager Chinese.

    Well, we got over it. But as raunchy and maddening as China was, it never felt foreign to me. It was just a part of home where I couldn’t understand the language. And I still miss it. No doubt you’ll miss Korea too.

  • I lived three years in Korea. I wanted to go home so bad because the country was driving me crazy! Then when I got home I missed Korea so much and became homesick for those carefree days. It took me 6 months to acclimate myself to America, but I still feel those pangs every so often.

    No matter where you are, some part of you will always think about the other place.

  • I stumbled across your blog while I was doing some online research. As someone who had the privilege of living in Japan for a number of years prior to returning to the United States, I know how hard it can be to adjust to life in a different country…and then re-adjust to life back at home. Good luck to you!

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